Green with Envy

So, I had a dream two nights ago. I was with two female friends and their children; there were other children there as well and I was 'in charge' of one of the little boys. I only kind of knew him, he wasn't my child. So, we are somewhere where we are going to watch a parade or some kind of public performance event and I get separated from the two ladies and their kids. I end up sitting by this guy (who in real life is a friend of mine and Mike's) and his kid. We kind of know each other in my dream and I really want him to like me and think I'm smart.
Now the kid I'm watching starts to misbehave so I take him away from the crowd to talk to him about his behavior; we end up going into a bathroom. When I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, I notice that I have green mascara smeared under my eyes, over my temples, down my jaw line, on my chin and neck! It is dry and crackled. I'm so embarrassed and try to rub it off. But it's dried on! So I get a white washcloth, soak it with water, and wipe the ugly green mascara off my face and neck...
When I'm all cleaned up, I notice how beautiful my skin is and how great my make up looks. I look at the kid and tell him he needs to behave himself and it's time for us to go back out. He is bummed out and says something like, "I guess we can't do...."
And I woke up!

I asked the Lord what the different people and things could mean in my dream, had He been trying to speak to me? So I labeled who I thought the women were and what they represented and what their kids represented. I did the same thing with the guy and his kid. The women and the man represented a specific gift/anointing that we all share and their kids represented their ministry. The kid I was in charge of was 'not my kid.' He was 'not my ministry.'

Then I asked the Lord, 'Now what could that green mascara be?' And I'm telling you the truth, before I even finished the question, He answered, "Jealousy." I was stunned. But immediately knew it was the truth. I have been jealous of other people and their ministries. He then showed me that the jealousy was born from a sense of insecurity that I have allowed to live in my life for a long time! Far too long!!!!

Then He showed me that the white washcloth was purity, holiness, and forgiveness and the water was the Holy Spirit. As I washed my face and neck with His holiness and allowed forgiveness to flow, He restored me to a right relationship with Him.

I love how the Lord speaks to me. He's so gentle and patient, loving and kind.